The other day I did parts work on the aspect of me who believed that what I want is impossible.
I'll begin by saying I love parts work. It literally brings to light any limitations that you weren't aware of. And not just that, it has the potential to pull you out of the darkest place you've ever been in if you know how to do it right.
This aspect I did parts work with was a little defeated girl inside of me who was firmly convinced that anything she wanted was simply impossible to get. Why even try then, she whispered in a low voice.
I truly understand where she's coming from. Growing up in an environment where going for what I wanted was punished with silent treatment, all kinds of physical and mental abuse, I saw no way for me to get what I want.
It's impossible, I decided for myself.
And part of me froze there in time.
It's impossible to be happy without hurting someone else. It's impossible to enjoy life without feeling irresponsible at the same time. It's impossible to have my dream of traveling the world come true.
It may be possible for others.
But I never felt it could ever be for me.
I then challenged myself a little more. Instead of dissociating and distracting myself with some random thoughts because the pain of realizing how powerless I felt in my childhood was too much to bear, I came back in my body over and over again and stayed with my pain.
This pain of not getting what you want is a particularly gut wrenching kind of pain. It's not simply discomfort. It's choking you. It's sucking the life out of you.
So you may understand why it was hard even for me, a devoted self explorer, with years under my belt of doing practices like this.
What I found out, after releasing the energy of this stored trauma around desire, is that we feel something is impossible only when we don't know how to do it yet.
I felt awestruck by the simplicity of this epiphany I had.
It's true.
Think of flying.
Hundreds of years ago, the concept of flying for humans was an impossible and beautiful dream. Now it's one of the most achievable things you can imagine, thanks to the invention of the airplane.
Look all around you.
Every little thing you take for granted today was simply too miraculous to even conceive of at one point in our history.
What's the difference between now and then? Back then, we simply didn't know how to do it yet. Someone had to defy the norm and the rules and the common sense, the conventional acceptance of our limitations for these things to finally be possible.
This aspect of me that I did parts work with understood that the gap between what she feels is impossible and the achievement of that thing is some missing pieces of information and some action to be taken.
That's it. I know it sounds easier said than done. But allow yourself to start by affirming this to yourself "Maybe it CAN be possible. Maybe with the right guidance and the right tools, it CAN come true".
Your dreams are yours.
Your limitations are society's.
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